How to beat fatigue…
How to beat fatigue..
Let's talk about fatigue for a second. I'm tired. I'm like super tired. I'm not the kind of tired that's like "Hey man I'm tired of this let me do something about it." No. I'm the kind of tired that's like, "Let me lay down and ya’ll wake me up when this is over.” The racism. The killing. The injustice. I think it makes everybody tired. 2020 has been a year for the bucks. And I believe that in some way, shape or form everybody is tired. But I told God that I don’t feel like posting much. I don’t feel like writing letters. I don’t feel like writing emails. I did protests, but I’m still tired.
And this weird thing happened. I was up late one-night watching videos on YouTube. Weird. For some reason. I was just watching a bunch of videos and I found myself watching this video of this 25-year-old black dude who had died, went to hell, and went to heaven. He was talking about his experience of both. Now look I’m not here to tell you what you should or shouldn’t believe. Or if the video is even a fake or not. That’s not why I’m bringing this up.
What caught my attention was as he was talking about heaven he said that he was standing in front of God’s throne and there were these four animals, or beings that had eyes all over them. They had six wings and even the wings had eyes. They had eyes that covered every part of their body. And I’ve heard this before. I went to Revelations chapter 4 verse 8 and it tells us about these creatures that have eyes all over their body. They just sit there surrounding God. I thought that this was interesting. But what stood out to me is that he said that he was standing in front of God. God didn’t say anything to him but what he noticed was that the creatures' eyes never left God. It didn’t matter if he was standing there. It didn’t matter who was standing there. The creature’s eyes, all of them, were focused on God. That just stuck and I didn’t know why.
I have a dog named Pep and she is the sweetest girl. We just adopted her a few weeks ago. She loves us and we love her. Here's the thing about her; she will follow you anywhere you go. If I sit down on the couch she will sit down on the floor beside me. The thing about her is she is so concerned with you not leaving her. She adores us so much that her eyes never leave us. She's always staring at us. I could be sitting on the couch and she is laying on the floor. If I make a move she’s looking to see if I’m doing anything, if I’m going somewhere. I could make the slightest movement and she is looking. She is making sure that I am not leaving her. It’s almost as if she’s asking, “What’s next?”
And then it dawned on me. I told God I was too tired. What do I do? And then He told me, "Just look at me. Your eyes should never leave me." This isn't the answer I was looking for because I have to focus on social media. I have to stay up to date with the news. I have to pay attention to what’s happening to my brothers and sisters. How do I keep my eyes on you while also focusing on my surroundings? I can’t even run because when I run I have to look at my surroundings because I don’t want to get got! But God simply said, “Focus on me.”